A Very Big Trial

I have now had my CPAP Machine for eighty days, and things are beginning to improve slightly. I am getting used to it, and I am now beginning to get more recognizable dreams in my REM sleep periods. However, the Alpha Waves are still there, and I will not be able to have the problem addressed by Dr. Munoz until at least the end of August. And in all of this, my sleep patterns are still the same-Get up between 8-10 am, fall asleep around 5pm for 1-5 minutes, be totally exhausted  until about 11pm, when my strength totally returns and stays at a high level until at least 2am., but usually till 3, or later....

So here is where it stands as of now, And on top of all this, I received a letter on Saturday from the DMV telling me that they are going toi hold a heating on my fitness to drive because of my Sleep Apnea and I have been summoned to appear before them on Friday at 11:15am. I was asked to fill out some forms and to have Dr, Munoz fill some forms out, as well. I knew that something would happen, but I had no idea that it would be this severe. Dr. Munoz told me that he would have to report my Sleep Apnea problem to the DMV, and that I would not be able to drive without using my CPAP machine, which was reasonable.What I did NOT hear nor understand was that he was actually telling me was that I should not be driving at all, and when he saw me in March, he was surprised that I was still driving,

Now I understand the spirit behind his actions and why he was doing it. What HE did not-and may still not understand-is the intent behind my actions. You see, I have a life that I need to live, and it would be practically impossible for me to do the things that I need to do if I was restricted from driving. Bakersfield has a terrible public transportation system which, unlike Portland, caters to a primary set of clients and does little to cater to anyone who does nopt live in that loop. For me to take a bus, ANY bus, I would have to walk at least one-half mile to the nearest bus stop and hope that i could be there in time to catch the one bus, that only runs once per hour and leaves at Twenty-five minutes past the hour. (The only reason that I feel that the bus gets up here at all is that it is close to the High School-for a long time, it did not come this far up).

I lost a lot of this because of problems which my system had in saving this. But I am no longer in Portland, and losing my Driver's License for me would be like someone taking a meat cleaver and  cutting off my legs. I am nervous about it and scared. Please pray for me.